Day 12 “Give Me Eyes To See” Living for Today

Welcome to day 12 of our 40 devotional of praise and testimony!

 Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

In a few more days, I will have surgery for my cancer. I know that this is very necessary but not something a year ago I would have elected to do. I have already finished my chemo therapy and as I look back I know that God was with me through it all. I talked to Him on the good days and the bad and for sure on the sleepless nights. I also rested on the fact that many prayers were made on my behalf. I never thought that I was afraid or that my thoughts were consumed with cancer and its remedies until the first treatment. As the nurse got the IV’s ready, I was fine until the very first dose was being pushed in – then I just broke down. I’m not sure exactly what the break was about but I think I needed it so that I could go on and start the countdown of treatments. I don’t know what my days will be like after surgery. I know they will be different than what I’m use to. I want to rely on, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” The thing is, I still have things to do to prepare for the surgery and for when I’m back home. I’m responsible for getting to pre-op appointments, making sure I’ll have a way to get to the hospital for surgery and a way back home. I’ll need my house clean, plenty of food in the house and my laundry all caught up. Doing these things ahead of time doesn’t mean that I don’t trust in God for my tomorrow, it is preparation for the hope that I will have that tomorrow. Because of this preparation, my tomorrows after surgery will go a little smoother. I also don’t know how I’ll feel emotionally after surgery. That’s why I like this version of Matthew 6:34: “Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” (MSG) God is the center of today. He made it possible to deal with it and my trust in Him will make the tomorrows full of His grace when they come. “There is nothing, no circumstance, no trouble, no testing that can even touch me until, first of all, it has come past God and past Christ, right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose.” (Alan Redpath) I just pray that I am surrendered to Him today and more so in what tomorrows God blesses me with.

Audrey Ladrach

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